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Name: APRiL
Birthday: 4/27/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: DANCiNG <33. MUSiC. FAMILY. FRiENDS. iNDiViDUALiTY. RANDOMNESS. DiSLiKER (NOT A HATER). LOOK AT THE BRiGHTER SiDE CUZ iTS PRETTiER.
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Member Since:
8/1/2005
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| "Sometimes, in relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to
recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out so many
beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by
our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man
of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you
love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable
of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow, but
never too far to feel the love deep within your being. To let go of
someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, It only means that you
allow that person to find her own happiness without expecting her to
come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it
is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, and anger
that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness eat away your
strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you,
but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find a
peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in
return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but never can give
enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful
memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open
acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives
when we chance upon someone so nice and soon becomes a part of our
everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The
sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels
nothing more for us than just a friendship, we start our desperate
attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are
still rewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have
to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the
verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe
me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone
more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let
your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to
reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it
means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that
doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it
sure that the tears wash away the hurt and bitterness that the past has
left you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you.
And when it does, pray that it may be the love hat will stay and last a
lifetime. There are two ways to live your life. One is as though
nothing is a miracle. The other through everything is a miracle.
There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. no past so bitter that love cannot accept.
And no love so little that we cannot start all over with."
-Albert Einstein
I swear. People are just so stupid now a days. Live. Laugh. and Love. no joke.
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| I'M ALMOST THERE!
it feels like just yesterday that i was a freshman in high school, going through some stupid shoe, clothes, boys, and friend drama. But now, I'm a senior. Superior, mature, intelligent. And it feels sooo good! I am so excited to graduate and start off fresh at Cal State Fullerton. Its not that I'm tired of my friends, but whats wrong with making new ones? WOO! But i know ill miss high school so much. I'm already beginning to miss it. All these people ive grown up with since elementary, i probably wont see them ever in my life. Oh man. But im so ready for the next chapter in my life. Its the Beginning of the End.
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| so far has been kind of a drag... But hopefully it gets better a long the way! Well i guess my spring break has started off ok. Last saturday was my parent's anniversary. 27 years man. But anyways.. my mom wanted to take a family portrait, even though we have like 10 billion in our house already, but it was a good outing with the family. We ended up just hanging out at the Block for a while for our pictures and they actually turned out pretty swell. I really do like them though and it made me think," wow.. we are really getting old." Just seeing how my brother was taller than all of us compared to the other family pictures we have, how I'm graduating this year and just how much older we all look. It was kind of a short reality check for me. But after we took our picture, we wanted to go to the beach so we went to Redondo beach to eat crabs. And i've got to say, eating crabs is the best and most fun meal you will ever eat. I had so much fun eating there. It was some Korean crab shack but everything was so delicious! And the crabs we ate were so huge! The fun thing about it was that all you were eating on was a table with a paper table cloth, paper plates, chopsticks, and a hammer. When the crabs came, all we did was hammer those crabs and just make a big mess. I didn't really have to worry about being clean or being messy or anything because everyone around us were doing the same thing. I so want to do that again. But at the end of the day, I had such a good feeling inside. It was the first time in a long time that I could finally breathe. Seriously, the last week of school before spring break was like hell for me. With all the practices and the performances i had and the stress that was overwhelming me, I just couldn't take it anymore. All the pressure of having to do well at Rival Schools and having them look perfect was just so hard for me. I seriously dont want to ever have to do that again. But being with all of my family again in one place made everything so much better. At the end of the day, i felt like a little kid again... When all of us used to go to family parties in Poway and have so much fun that we don't want to go home and go back to reality.. being in one car together and sleeping on each others shoulders on the way home. I really miss that and that day was so nostalgic for me. The Beast Feeling In the World.
But now.. im three days into my spring break and im already bored. I've been home alone for the past two days and even though i have a car to drive myself around to places, i kind of didn't feel like going anywhere. I seriously had nothing to do because i didn't want to spend a lot of my money cuz i'm saving up for my prom dress and i didn't wan't to waste my gas and end up paying the ridiculous amount of $4.00 a gallon for gas if i wanted to go somewhere. So really..i had no where to go but sleep in my lovely bed. It felt kind of nice taking like 2 naps in one day but its not me being so lazy and like a vegetable. I'm used to doing something all the time but i guess its a good things for me right? since i've been stressing myself out with school and dance and such. Its a good break from all of that. Although I'm on spring break, I have so much homework i have to deal with. I'm kind of dreading to do it but i know me..somehow ill get it done it the end..hopefully.  Yesterday I was supposed to go to our city hall for some city council meeting for government but i didn't feel like it. Goodness, i didn't know how much laziness takes over everything. But hopefully by tomorrow or next week my spring break will kick it up a notch.
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| The Photo of the Week...
On the day we had a half day, which was Tuesday October 9th, my friends and I went out to dinner at BJ's for Kristen and Celina's birthday. Celina didn't end up coming because she got sick, but its ok... we still had bundles of fun! So many laughs and inside jokes were created at that table. Man, and I didn't realize how gay guys could be. Literally. Just kidding, but we had some good laughs about them too. Goooood times. I actually got to see Joneal for the first time in a looonng time! It was exciting seeing him again because I haven't seen him in ages. I found out that he's leaving for Iraq on Sunday and it made me really sad. We all wont be able to see him for about 8 or 9 months! Shoot.. we won't even be high schoolers anymore! Man, I'm going to miss that mister. So we are planning dinner for him on saturday since it will be his last day here with us until we meet again 9 months later. But anyways, back to the dinner. One conversation we had at the table was how lame we were in middle school. We all used to have different group names like my friend Khat made up a name for her and her "crew" called DLY ( Disturbed Lady Youngins) and my friends and I also made up a lame group the L.A.K.K.K.A which were the first letters of all of our names. I KNOW! SO LAME! haha... we had some good laughs about how immature and stupid we were to have such an ugly or meaningless name. But those were the days we look back on an laugh about. And look at us now, freakin seniors man! We have all grown up so fast! man... so after dinner we went to Harveston Lake to chill and just relax our stomachs from all the food and laughs we had. We hung out by the lake for a couple of hours just passing the time talking about life and how far we've all have gone. We still even kept in touch with some of our friends that already graduated and saw how much they've grown also. the quote for that day was " hey... I love you guys." But the Quote of the week is: " we grow up so fast that time just passes you by, so just try and catch it and make the best out of everything! Live, Laugh, Learn." say word.
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| so.... school has started and it is quite lovely so far. It has been such a chill senior year so far and im LOVIN' IT! So for my photojournalism class I have to blog for my the "use of technology" part of the class, which is a score for me since I always like to blog anyways! SWEEET DEAL!
Photo of the Week:
awww man... i miss this so much! This was my freshman year. Goodness gracious, we looked so young! This past weekend I was at one of my good friend's birthday party and all of us were reunited again. We usually don't see each other that much at school and so it was nice seeing them all again at the same time. We always have such a good time when we are all together. So many laughs, inside jokes, and good times. We all realized that night, too, that we are all still friends. Through all the drama and bullshit we went through and ever since middle school we are still really close friends. It made us all really sad thinking about how it is our senior year and its basically our last year we will see each other all at the same place and time everyday and at least one or two of us will still be close friends. We got so emotional and it made us over think and realize that we need to live it up this year. We decided that we are going to hang out so much this year and make so many memories. We plan to go to various road trips as we can and if we are able to, such as the bay, camping on the beach, Cabo (hahahah), knotts scary farm, and so much more. Hopefully we get to do those things because that would be bomb! While I was coming home from the party it made me really think about how these friends of mine have really been there for me and I am so glad to have friends like them still here by my side for the how many years we've been friends. I am so thankful for that. So Senior year... Class of 2008.... We better live it up and live as if theres no tomorrow nukkkas!!!
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april balanza.
I become LEGAL on april 27th. a temecula valley high schooler. i have a boyfriend named DANCE. i also have a best friend named MUSiC.BUT i can be your best friend forever any day :) i have a fettish for fashion. you can catch me laughing till i pee my pants. smiling is what i can never stop doing. i look at the brighter side cuz its prettier.i'm RANDOM cuz life is. LIFE...its the one thing i can't get enough of.